Ancient History…or the LiveJournal Archives

Tuesday, July 9th, 2002
12:00 am
Blah. I am so tired.
As is always the case, I work in the morning, so it is now midnight, and I am awake. I never get to sleep at a reasonable hour when there is something important to do. Never. Between tons of laundry, a small child thing, and a dirty catbox, I find myself hiding at the computer, trying to ignore everything to the best of my ability. A glass of wine later at least I have relaxed a little.

I must say my job is a busy one, and time passes so quickly at work that I almost forget to take lunch. Maybe there is a god, heh. Oh well. Things to do, houses to clean, people to think about killing. Lunches to be made. Bribes to offer. Back to business as usual.

BTW: Xian, noire was most pleasant and I thoroughly enjoyed myself.

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: noisy cats

Saturday, June 29th, 2002
8:54 pm
>^^

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: ssx tricky, played by my son, as background noise.

8:40 pm
LOOOOOOONG DRIVE!
Well I just got back an hour ago from getting Duncan. 9 hours of driving the first day, a night at my ex’s parent house in the forest and 10 more hours later, I am home with the loud child. Good thing he’s not a whiny brat, or I might have thrown him from the car on the way home. The lake’s up by Shasta are gorgeous right now, last years fire damage at weaverville has turned to hillsides of burnt trees and millions of little wildflowers, the avg temperature on the drive was 95 degrees, 78 in the car. Glad we took my dad’s new SUV. Toyota highlanders are nice for long trips.
Funniest part of the trip, in my opinion, is the fact that my dad, out of all the music I played (I brought my cd’s) the song he really liked (note song, not album, because he liked william orbit’s torch song, bill laswell’s material, and praga khan) was old school skinny puppy. Weird. My dad, lover of the beatles and paul simon and ottmar leibert, fan of tangerine dream and sade, likes my “driving music”
overall, I could be so much more exhausted and sore, but other than swollen feet and a bruised elbow (hit the door damnit!) I feel pretty good.

Side note:
Not to be a bitch, cuz really I just am not, but my ex’s new wife, and first wife I might add, is just an amazing piece of white trash, not to mention 12 years his junior, yeah, that’ll last. Not. No, I swear, this isn’t anger or jealousy, you know when they make tv movies and the girl is blonde out of the bottle and lives in a trailer park? She looks like that.

What did I see in that man in the first place???????

Ciao for now, going to Faith Assembly in one hour, must bathe.

Tuesday, June 25th, 2002
6:59 pm
Finally! Something worth metioning!
Job. I start Monday at Anderson & Murison, Inc. Located in very close-by Eagle Rock and conveniently close to everyone I know. Had the “interview” this morning, if you can call it that. Shook hands, sat down, first thing they said was, “Tell me a little about yourself.”
My response to this was to look out the window, blankly, and wonder-Who am I? I was finally able to eek out that I was a freelance artist, mostly illustration, went to school for that thank you, currently busy homemaker with two cats, two snakes, my brother and my husband. And that’s a handful. (What find of fucked up response is that?) Well there goes my first opportunity to talk about job skills. No really, I know how to type, swear!!!! Then proceeded to announce that I was extremely nervous, (in fact, I was so nervous, my neck and shoulder had locked up) and excited to be re-entering the workforce after such a long absence . (What am I saying? Am I retarded? IS this helping me?) I think I said well, you can’t get on the internet without knowing how to use a computer, now can you. (This had to be my worst interview ever) So a little bit more about not working for so long and the woman decides to tell me a little about the Company, which I end up relaying isn’t much more than I learned on their website…(there really isn’t much) So then she tells me what I would be doing and asks if I can count.
???????
Um…last time I checked…can’t do percentages, but I think I can count, I say. (I said that?) AAAAAAAhhhhhh!
So we go back and she introduces me to several peoples backsides and then has me file a few things. and I leave.

All of this takes ten minutes of my time, although I slept like crap last night cuz my honey kept grinding his teeth, and this morning was a zoo, and I was two minutes late for the interview and pissed off about it. So I go home and call the Woman at Act-1 who got me the interview and tell her how badly I feel it went. And she says she’ll call me later.

So I go back to bed for a while, watch TV, get on the computer and she calls me, and she’s more excited than I am, because they already called her, I have the job if I want it, they love me, I was great.
Again…????????????

How these things happen I will never know.

All I DO know is that Friday morning I leave to get my son from up north and get back Saturday night and start monday. Duncan will be in YMCA day camp for the Summer.

So there you have it, I am human again. Maybe this will fix all the problems I have been having for the last year and a half.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! I think I am happy.

Friday, April 12th, 2002
2:10 am
Everyone is here from out of town. We have people from San Francisco, and chicago, in town for rituals and pandemonium. There’s going to be a big party at my mom’s house on saturday and it’s going to be nuts till sunday

Sunday, March 31st, 2002
2:42 am
Club Noire is “Super Excellent!”
Thanx ever so much for a wonderful time, you blessed friend of mine! I had so much fun, and even though the man didn’t feel 100% I think he still had fun. I have to say though, Mooch was not thrilled when we got home, as no one had played with him, and my brother was asleep on the couch with the dvd player going. Heh. Yowled for ten minutes before deciding we had paid him enough atention for the moment. Now he is curled up on the floor near his rug and toy.
Today was better than any day in the last week and a half, I actually feel motivated, even if I haven’t done a whole bunch. I did go to the fabric district in LA with my mom to get fabric for our duvet cover. It is going to look so decadent. Yumminess! Still have to sew it, but I think for now it’s more important to find work and get the laundry finished.

Xian, I owe you a steak…..however you like it.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Who needs it? Been dancing all night!

Thursday, March 28th, 2002
11:24 pm
Even cowgirls get the blues…
Well, I ran away for the weekend. Depression will do that to you. I got my tattoo nearly finished on tuesday by Jason at Incognito in Pasadena. The only part that was painful enough to warrant uttering expletive deleted(s) and other various noises was the part over her hair, which because of who started the tattoo, damn him, was badly scarred. I used up everything my body had that day. 3 hours and 20 minutes of pain later, I get up, I walk downstairs, I walk back up and I almost faint. I had the buzz in my ears to prove it. Eeeeek. And I still don’t love it.I felt that way off and on for the rest of the day and into the night. Had to cancel going to see Blade II because I couldn’t be up for that long. I Believe that I ran out of adrenaline and endorphins. I have to go back in and get more work done, so I can be happy with the finished product. Turns out this guy, whose work is lovely, doesn’t like being told how to do things. Oh well, if I don’t love it, he better fix it…. I have to call him tomorrow
I had been depressed all weekend, and this was just the icing on the proverbial cake. Now, later on in the week, I have reconnected with some friends I haven’t seen in a long time, seen my doctor and been put on wellbutrin and celexa to combat my angst, and found out we have no money again as usual and that I really need to get a job. This last incident actually throwing me into a major panic attack that i had to take a zanax for and go to bed… I hate issues. I really hate alot of things… as soon as I figure out how to get rid of them, maybe I will be happy. One never knows

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: BOA- Elephant

Sunday, March 24th, 2002
4:21 am
Well I had another entry before but I had to remove it, because the man thingy was mad that I would post something so personal. So I took it down out of consideration…in the meantime I did a photo shoot on Friday that was fun until I got a tension headache which became a migraine which lasted fron one in the afternnon till 9 that night. Went to Helter Skelter and danced. Alot. Which was probably a really bad idea considering the headache and migraine that I had were brought on by muscle tension…so today my neck is half locked and if I thought I had to go to the doctor before, now I really need to. I don’t go often enough as it is and I still forget I have insurance now sometimes…

Going to sit at home tomorrow and maybe work on a resume, and watch the Oscars. we print up a list and vote for our favorites pre show and then see who actually guessed correctly. Fun. I need to go back on my diet pronto. EEEK!

Current Mood: awake

Wednesday, March 20th, 2002
3:04 pm
Spent the morning reading a book. The Tattoo Girl by brooke stevens. bizarre.

I wish it were friday.

I wish the apartment would clean itself, and while it’s at it, can it hang my pictures too?

Got up last night to go to the bathroom, and found a cockroach, which our apt manager, who is 72, thought was a waterbug. And while technically being correct, another name for those pesky waterbugs is cockroaches. Who knew? I found that out on the internet. Tried to obliterate it but it ran under the armoire. As I always say, BREED ELSEWHERE!!!!
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Spent the morning reading a book. The Tattoo Girl by brooke stevens. bizarre.

I wish it were friday.

I wish the apartment would clean itself, and while it’s at it, can it hang my pictures too?

Got up last night to go to the bathroom, and found a cockroach, which our apt manager, who is 72, thought was a waterbug. And while technically being correct, another name for those pesky waterbugs is cockroaches. Who knew? I found that out on the internet. Tried to obliterate it but it ran under the armoire. As I always say, BREED ELSEWHERE!!!! <STOMP!!> now strange people are going to have to come and spray harsh chemical all around the building.

At least the sun is out today. As much as I adore the nighttime, I really hate when it’s grey all day. Unless i am in a cemetery or indoors where I can’t tell it’s grey. Depresses me to no end. I like the sun, even if I really don’t want to stand directly in it.

I go into to start work on my big tattoo next tues at 12:30.
Jason at Incognito in pasadena does really wonderful work, so i am looking forward to it.

but enough about me….HA!

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: birds chirping

Tuesday, March 19th, 2002
7:40 pm
Amazing. I left the house.
It took Bowen deciding we had to go, but I got some of the crap I needed to done. Bought large gratuitous quantities of black hair dye for self and man-thing. Also bought three small cobalt blue glass bottles, different sizes all small enough to fit in hand. (OOOOOOO! Pu-ret-tee! Pretty blue glass! Must have glass!) (I have this very large collection, some of which is OLD, of blue glass, it’s kinda like ravens and crows with shiny objects.)
We went to Barnes and Noble, where I proceeded to look at books with pictures of cats while Bowen looked for some book for work…
Didn’t get mice. WTF?
Teeth are bugging me again today.
OH! Finally saw there is a release date for the last of the Evangelion movies. we have them translated from chinese, but wow, does that suck…the series was weird enough but they really mangled the english into near unintelligible gibberish. Plus half the movie is text, and that wasn’t translated at all.
Mmmmmmmm! Food is here. Must to eating stupid amounts of taco crap.

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Apoptygma berserk

2:57 pm
“Cat! LOOK at my sequencer….”
Bowen spent the day in the closet.
After having converted it when we moved into our apartment into a soundproof isolation booth for recording vox he has been using it this last week or so to do voice-overs on a tutorial for a computer program called Reason. ^v^ Kind of amusing to see a man with headphones going into what you know is a closet every fifteen minutes, and then by default, talking to himself.
Unfortunately for him, they didn’t get through very much today…as he has a wonderful bout of bronchitis to deal with. Irony, at it’s best.
I spent the day in the bedroom with MOOCHINGS, our cattings. He insisted on sitting half on and half off my chest as I read a book called Grandmother’s Secrets…which is about belly dancing. It made it rather difficult to turn pages, as he requires whomever he lays with on the bed to continuously stroke his head. After an hour of this, one can become very sleepy, and the constant purring/vibrations don’t help either. I slept WAY too long today. I will probably have to drug myself off to la la land tonight so I can be up before 1pm tomorrow.
I think I am going to start getting more work done on my tattoo on my back this week, barring any strange occurrences.
I have to go to the Beauty supply salon too, get hair dye, feed the snakes. It’s rather sad that I often find it difficult to work up the ?????? to leave the house.
We’ll see if any of this gets done later.

Monday, March 18th, 2002
11:34 pm
I am so completely uninspired now. I just ate…perrrhaps I should try this again later. It must be too early.

Current Mood: blah

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