Before “This is my Life”, there was “Day to Day Crap”
Posted April 21st 2007
Sick
Ugh. Ick. Blech. I hate being sick. Too much stuff in too little time, and of course I get bombed with the fever missile of fatigue and blahs. So sick I actually watched romancing the stone and ate popcorn today. If that tells you anything.
Posted April 15th 2007
I am back!
And it isn’t freezing here, or snowing. I don’t need three layers of clothing just to exist. Not that I didn’t have a blast. I did, in more ways than one, including being blasted in the face by wind. A lot.
though of course when I came back we had crazy wind and a sick kitten to contend with. but i am happy to be home, and my other kitties weren’t mad that I was gone for so long. I missed them though. So if you missed me, and you want to see me, come to malediction tonight.
Posted April 3rd 2007
one of those days
Current mood: numb
I really miss my cats.
Badly. And all I want to do is curl up with my Purusha right now.
It’s cold here. Cold and rainy and windy and dark. Not nearly enough green, and not enough moon seen to charge my crystal.
I guess my friends’ cat is sick, but other than that I know very little about how mine are doing, aside from that within three days of my leaving, my Purusha started to hide all the time. Which upsets me, and breaks my heart, even though I knew he wouldn’t take it that well.
As far as the rest of my cats, well, I guess they are fine because they are eating, and I have been told they are fine. Whatever that means. Doesn’t say much.
Give me a reason. To breathe, or something.
I am still here…maybe…maybe I am still asleep today.
Posted March 27th 2007
Leaving Soon!
Current mood: busy
Only one more day before Bowen and I hop on a plane and head out for Chicago for almost two weeks.
Last minute doctor’s appt. tomorrow, and the last of the house straightening up and packing and we’re good to go.
I’ve been to mexico 3 times, Yosemite, San Fran, (well, heck…truth be told I have been to most of the interesting places in California, but I didn’t get to hang out in Berkeley), Monterey Bay, Arizona, Las Vegas, and Florida to visit Bowen’s parents…
…and this is the first time I will be going anywhere long enough to immerse myself in a different kind of culture. I have no idea what to expect, except for knowing so many landmarks, and descriptions of places because Bowen has been telling me about since we met 7 years ago.
I am going to miss my cats the most (no offense dear friends…) especially Purusha. I think he is going to miss me more. I really hope they don’t give the catsitter too much trouble. The longest I (or bowen) have been away from our cats was three days, and they were all put out that we had disappeared for that long, and I really hope that the fact there are 6 of them here right now will help them stay entertained.
That’s probably wishful thinking. I think it’s a safer bet to wonder which one will hold the grudge the longest.
Oh well.
we’ll be back in constant communication after the 10th, but I will keep everyone posted and try to put up some pictures while I am there, and we can still be reached by internet.
We will be staying with our friends who own The Occult Bookstore, and I can’t wait for our 6th wedding anniversary! (get to spend it with Bowen’s parents…but not the night part, heh)
I wonder what he’s gonna get me for our anniversary?
I won’t tell what I got for him. Shhhhhh!!!
So Bon Voyage to me!
Posted March 2007
Installment #2
Current mood: tired
it’s hard to get off club schedule once you’re on it…yes I am still awake, not that I sleep much anyway. Most of the time…
here’s one for a lot of you, you know who you are~
Procrastination
Due tomorrow, due today,
a sinking, drowning feeling
in my head and in my stomach;
I’ve waited and waited
and waited so long
that I know it’s the end of the line.
When the guilt sets in
and my ego shrinks down
to the size of a crumb,
I realize then what it is
that I know I should have done
but it’s already too late.
And only in my mind
I think, that I could have tried,
that I wasn’t too late,
and I could have done something
instead of absolutely nothing…
…except just to procrastinate.
02.22.1988
a new use for my blog…
Current mood: awake
Since bowen usually posts all pertinent news, and I don’t post unless, well, unless I really feel the need…
…I decided to post some of my poetry over time to amuse some of you.
some of it’s has been published, some of it hasn’t, all of it is copyrighted.
I hope you enjoy it.
Muse
Like a drug that I can’t live without.
Infected by your nature, I think you are -
contagious.
Please…feel free to sneeze.
In the energy of now and until then
you are the bluest skies, the clearest oceans,
an everchanging work of art.
Symbiotic vibrations to the core of heat.
I pulse with the flow of you,
coursing through my veins,
reflected in my eyes.
The paper, the ink, the double edged sword,
the canvas and paint, the silk robe…
you are all these and more.
The breeze that blows against my back,
the sunlight filtered into my soul.
I am but one single tear in the palm of your hands.
But I will not evaporate.
My tear, my ME,
is as an ocean running over to brimming.
Song and music bursting out of a bubble.
My dreams and desires, darkest secrets, hidden pleasures,
revealed to you, no one else holds so much over me.
You hold the key,
and are the lock itself.
But I am freer than before, floating blissful -
decadent – open.
I accept.
I come.
I scream.
It’s too bright to see anything,
but unquestionably,
I feel you.
My muse, my imagination, the whole of you,
is a piece of me.
Image fixed.
07.08.1999
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